Please note that whilst all of the coming posts have been written during my treatment, not all of them will be posted at the time of writing. This is simply because I have been incredibly busy running a business as well as going through my treatment, and for a while I wasn’t sure whether I wanted to publish my thoughts about all of this. But, having thought about it for some time, I’ve decided to add it to my blog in the hope that it can provide some support and advice for people suffering from cancer, and show how what I’ve learnt as a therapist has helped me get through this.
During the coming weeks, and months, I hope to provide you with a valuable insight in to what suffering from something like cancer is like, what to expect with the treatment, and how a prognosis of cancer doesn’t always mean your life is changing for the worse, and most importantly how what I’ve learnt through my training as a Solution-Focused Therapist has helped me, and how it may be able to help others. I will also include any resources I found useful in my mission to learn more about a subject which everyone’s heard of, but not many of us really know much about.
How it all started :-
In 2017 I had a mammogram. I nearly didn’t go, because I had a dentist appointment on the same day and, well, no one likes getting prodded and pulled twice in a day. However, I decided to do the mammogram instead, cancelling the Dentist. I very nearly made the opposite choice. Off I went to Tesco’s car park to the big white van, not really thinking much of it. I felt well in myself and I was too happy to seriously consider that there could be something wrong with me. I remember joking with the assistants in there whilst they examined me.
I thought nothing else of it until about two weeks later I received a letter from my local hospital, Addenbrookes, telling me that there had been an “inconsistency” on the mammogram and could I return to the breast clinic to have another one. Totally inconvenient, but off I went to the breast clinic. I had the second mammogram and sat for a while in the waiting area before being bought back into another room where I was told that there was still an “inconsistency” and they wanted to do a quick CT scan to have a look.
At this point I still thought nothing of it at all. However, as soon as they put the CT scanner on me up it popped on the screen. “there” said the Radiologist pointing to a small darker area on the screen. “that is not normal”. “What is it?” I asked craning my neck to see if there were any other dark areas, “is it a cyst?”. “No I don’t think so” she said as she continued to move the scanner around also looking for any other signs of darker patches. “I have been working here for many years and I’m the head Radiologist in this department. Of course you will need to have further checks, but in my opinion we are looking at a small tumour”. “Oh” and I felt my life shift a little.
This is my story.